Tuesday, May 02, 2006
5/02/2006 06:44:00 PM Y
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♥ -reality check!-
heyy...
El paper 2 was quite ok. But chinese paper 2 really sucked. I hope i won't flunk it this time. Ok today was a really bad day for someone. Really feel sorry for her. Her problems are really neverending. I tried my best to help but just couldn't do anything about it. Sorry!
Anyway, after El paper 2 was recess. And it felt very weird in class. I was sitting with Shi hui at stacy's table. Due to some circumstances, shi hui did not want to face the back of the class. It felt really weird for me and shi hui. We had our cliques around us but somehow we did not talk to them at all. And they somehow did not care too. I sometimes wonder if i should ditch them, or they have already ditched me out of the group. I can somehow sense the hatred they have for me and i really want to know what they have against me. I don't want to act innocent or whatever but i seriously want to know what they are thinking. They are sometimes so nice to me and the next thing you know they are leaving you out. I wonder why in the first place i was hanging out with them since the first day of school. One person can actually change the whole group's impressions on me. Nice eh... How cool was that. -.-
Sigh.. i really didn't know how this whole thing came about.
Oh yah. Remembered i said that i shared this blog with two other people, now its just me, sharon. I changed my password and address just because of this problem. They are just so close to her that i don't know if i can really trust them. Im sorry but i just can't. SORRY!
Things are really going out of hand here.. And obviously they don't care cuz all they know is that they have gotten rid of me and that's all they needed to do. But i too think that i was the black sheep among them. Whether im in or out, they don't give a shit about it. All they know now is that they have all the smart asses in their clique and think that they are so proud of it. It all still comes down to results.
Never look at the outer appearance.
I think i really learnt my lesson about that.
Hope you people don't fall into your friend's trap cuz you never know when they'll just get sick of you and brush you away, like you never existed in the first place...
I understand that now and even experienced it. And i know how awful it is to be in that situation.
ok.. gtg now! Good luck for the rest of the exams. Be sure to play hard once the exams are over!
