Saturday, December 09, 2006
12/09/2006 09:09:00 PM Y
Post title :
♥ -reality check!-
hey!im bored mann..been rotting at home. well today had piano. finally got to play other pieces besides my exam pieces. but all the sonatas and fugues etc for my grade all so difficult.. it'll take a long time to play it properly.. lol.. well at least its better than my exam pieces. anyway.. after piano came home. watched ant bully.. after eating dinner watched singapore dreaming. nice show.. typical singapore scene.. lol. tmr got church.. yupp. don't have to go up tmr.. yay. haha.. well.. recently heard the juniors saying skip two's very nice now etc..obviously its bcuz he was there to make it better.. its like.. he comes one day and changes the whole feel, making it so much more better.. and i have been trying again and again to finish the song. im such a failure. wad i do doesn seem to pay off.. guess they really chose the wrong junior conductress. i really don't want to continue having this post for the next two years. i can just die. i've tried so hard..
but it doesn match up to wad he does and wad he expects. i really don't know wad to do.
i love pb.. but id rather have no post.. than have one but doing it lousy. being in pb is the best thing tht happened to me.. well sort of.. but the stress lvl for me is way higher than anything else. i don't know wad will happen to me next year. will i quit? or will i stay on suffering there? the passion has always been 100%. but i can't continue on doing something i don't like. but who knows.. maybe i won't get tht student conductress post. so yah.
